Saturday, March 29th, 2014
|5:06 p.m. - Hello, world|
I keep meaning to get online and keep up with LJ and Dreamwidth the way I once did, but I keep finding myself thinking of it as too much of a hassle. Not the keeping up, but the actual act of getting online and signing in to things. Why? Well, part of it is that if I do want to use the computer, there's a lot of stuff on my desk to clear away these days. And part of it is--I don't know, fatigue? depression? both?--whatever, it just seems like so much effort to be here. But all you lovely people won't come to my home and whisper your stories in my ear, so maybe I should make it a priority to move those piles of paper to a better place so it doesn't seem like getting online requires so much energy.
As for that fatigue/depression thing, I don't quite know what to do about it. I think that part of it may be that the latest generic version of my anti-seizure medication wasn't giving me an adequate dose, so my brain's been fizzling and not letting me think or feel quite right. That's probably a big part of the problem, so I've been thinking of asking the doctor to check that "Brand Name Medically Necessary" box next time she writes out a prescription. Fortunately, that won't increase my co-pay too much! One of these days I need to find a way to find the energy to get to a neurologist again.
In other news, I'm still here, still going to at least one farmers' market every week, still reading books, still drinking lots of tea. Been reading very, very slowly, but I've managed to finish 32 books so far this year in all that time I've spent offline. Have also gotten a bit better about listening to some of the old podcasts I've downloaded, so that's a good thing. I have eaten Ethiopian meals three times this year so far, and every time I've gone out to that restaurant there's either been snow on the ground or snow in the air. I've been enjoying the snow, waiting for daffodils, admiring the early-blooming pink-flowered cherry trees in our neighborhood, hoping that snow wouldn't hurt the early pink blossoms on those cherry trees, and admiring the resilience of those early-blooming pink-flowered cherry trees. I've been keeping an eye out for the neighborhood fox, occasionally spotting the cute li'l creature in the alley or in the woods. I've spent entirely too much time deciding which kind of tea to buy. I've eaten more than my fair share of spiced almonds. I've been staring at pretty rocks. I've been hoping that you're well.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Go Swim, "Call Sign"
Yeah, I know. People with epilepsy are often advised to stick with just the brand-name versions of drugs for that very reason--we need steady levels of medication in our bloodstream for them to be effective. I'd never had a problem with generics before, but now that I (strongly suspect I) have, I will be sure to mention it to my doctor.
glad you've got those pink blossoms to enjoy. we won't get blossoming trees for a while yet,but i love it when it happens.
i hope you can find something that makes you feel better. having health issues is always such a challenge.
i haven't written here since the beginning of january. i'd love it if things got busier here at livejournal,though i'm not sure what i myself will write about.
Yes, we have pretty pink blossoms on a few trees... and today we had more snow! This has been an odd winter for us.
Thank you. I hope I feel better soon, too. Not totally sure what I can do other than make tweaks to the things I've been doing--I mean, doing something really radical would require energy, and that's sorta one of my problems I'm trying to deal with--but I'll do what I can and see what happens.
I often get great ideas for LJ posts--in the middle of the night when I'm trying to sleep!
I'm making an attempt to be present to LJ again, but my problem has been massive distraction by the visuals at Tumblr. (Facebook is just more and more frustrating.) Good for you, reading real books! I just finished a C.S. Lewis and will be tackling Thomas Merton. Metaphorically, you will understand.
Good to see ya!
Edited at 2014-03-31 06:11 pm (UTC)
Some of the books I've been reading have been pretty darn fluffy, but I've finished them! Not reading any print today, though. Head hurts.
What's the best way to tackle Merton for someone who's never tackled him before?
Oh, huh, lemme think. I first read *7 Storey Mountain* (in Italian!) and adored it. I've reread it several times, in English of course. It's Merton when he was young and still very gung-ho about the monastery, but it's beautifully written and so involving. I bought it again recently, in fact, meaning to start rerereading it when the mood hits.
He became less orthodoxly RC and more universalist as he aged and toward the end. He did some writing about Eastern religion, e.g., but I haven't read those.
If you're interested in him as a poet, there are selections of his poems, which are quite nice. And there's a lovely prayerbook edited and collated from bits of his writing, if you're into very poetic prayers. (Just for info, not to suggest you buy it: Book of Hours
I wouldn't suggest the many books he wrote to do with monastic life, just to fulfill his duties to the abbey. I never could get into those. It's the man himself whom I love.
Thank you! Next time I'm in the mood for something less fluffy, I'll keep those in mind.
I've been playing around with my diet for a while to find out what makes me feel better, what worse. One thing I discovered recently is that adding wheat germ to my breakfast actually makes me feel better! I've also been taking probiotics & eating lots of fermented foods, which don't seem to have much effect on my energy levels so far, but my gut's been feeling better.